had a tiring day today .
for me its kinda bad .
usual saturday's at somerset .
busted my right elbow , right hips , & freaking thigh muscle .
awww it just hurts so much , i couldn't skate much just now .
it sucks ... especially when you're just not there for me anymore . :( .
yes , i really get kinda hurt & fucking irritated when people ask me ,
" Khairul , kau ngn ________ ape mcm ? " or " Khairul , _________ mane ? "
even some if i told them , they ask me to explain what happen .
hais , it just makes me more sad . then they'll always have to try to chill me & cheer me up ... sometimes i just feel like having some time alone .
yes many people ask me this just now ..
i just , dont know what to say to them , i don't want them to feel dissapointed in me too ... they've been like supporting me .
but yeah it happened ...
after all this sacrifices i made , one mistake and its all gone .
sometimes , you just needed to put your trust into me , girl .
for all i know , no other girl can compare to you .
you're just a special kind .
i won't say i'll die without you , obviously no cause i'm alive . -.- .
but yes , it just seems so different .
i really do wanna be JUST friends with you again .
i really miss the old times of us .
i really wanna say , you're just simply , the best i ever had .
it hurts too much .



*friends , maybe you might see me happy around with you guys , but inside i'm sad .
okay ? understood . :( .



you're a natural , all is possible , everything's so right , its so surreal , there is no pretend , nothing can compare to the moments we shared . you're my perfect joy , a splendid sight , like a stained glass that , sparkles from inside ,unconditional , love and honesty . it's all because of you . (back to top.)